Charlotte Rains Dixon, MFA

  • Charlotte Rains Dixon is a free-lance writer, novelist, copy writer and creative writing teacher living in Portland, Oregon, with frequent trips to LA and Nashville.

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    December 2007

    December 31, 2007

    Happy New Year

    I posted this under the category of food and drink because that seems appropriate for New Year's Eve, don't you think?  And even though it is nearly 8 PM and I sitting at my computer writing a blog post, that does not mean I am lame and have no plans for New Year's Eve.  No, we have late dinner reservations, so there.

    Since it is the time of New Year's Resolutions, I am going to post mine for my blog here, in hopes that the threat of public humiliation will make me actually follow through on them:

    • Get back to a regular posting schedule.  The holidays and the need to spend what rare time I have off from social events on that minor little detail called real work have wreaked havoc with my blog posts.
    • Catch up on comments.  See above.
    • Re-design this blog.  My right and left columns are too narrow and they are banners and ads off, which bugs the you-know-what out of me.  I'm hiring my friend Suzanne, who designed the Wordstrumpet Banner to do it for me.
    • Do more networking on Blog Catalog and the new place I've found, Yuwie.  I'm lying--I didn't find it, Derek the Welshman told me about it.
    • Check all links and get them all live again.  For some inexplicable reason, all the author links now feed right back to this blog.  Weird. 
    • Post photographs.  Yes, I now own a digital camera!  All I have to do is figure out how to get the photos from the camera to the computer.  I know, I know, it isn't hard, I just haven't had time to download the software.
    • Finish the Make Money Writing Online book.  I am really, really, really going to do this.
    • Celebrate being a blogger.  It has opened up a whole new world to me, introduced me to wonderful new friends, and gotten my some great clients. 

    So, here's to a fabulous 2008.  Happy New Year, y'all!  (I'm going to Nashville in 11 days so I can say that.)

    December 24, 2007

    Merry Christmas Everyone

    Back when I was a blog reader but not yet a blog writer I'd read people's blogs and inevitably come upon the "sorry I haven't posted for so long, but I've been ___________" (you can fill in the blank with sick, away, busy, whatever). 

    For some reason, I always hated those posts because they were sort of sad.  Poor innocent blog just sitting there, waiting for its owner to pay it attention. 

    Well, now I am writing one myself.  Although, let's be honest, it hasn't been that long since I've posted--only a few days.  But every day I don't blog I am keenly aware of it.   The same is true with working on my novel--every day I don't write I am keenly aware that I haven't. 

    I don't understand people who live without creative projects pulling at them constantly.  Sometimes I think it would be a nice relief, but then I realize I would just get bored.

    At any rate, my fill-in-the-blank excuse is the same as everyone's this time of year--Christmas.  It slams me every year.  No matter how well I plan, no matter how hard I work steadily on all my projects as the date approaches, every year in the days before Christmas I end up deserting all my writing, paid and unpaid, in order to get the shopping and the wrapping and the baking done. 

    And then I wander around not feeling like myself for a couple days.  Writing is what grounds me and connects me with myself and when I'm not writing I don't feel real. 

    I do love Christmas and spending time with the people I'm closest to.  But come December 26th, I'm going to be mighty happy to get back to my writing--and to myself.

    In the meantime, Merry Christmas to all!

    December 19, 2007

    The Number Two Blogging Town

    Common wisdom has always been that the city I live in, Portland, Oregon is a haven for writers.  We have Powell's after all, and for those of you who are only familiar with it online, the brick-and-mortar store is, and I'm not kidding, a whole city block full of books.

    Many people blame it on the rain, although in truth when you look at the yearly totals of rainfall, Portland is far down the list.  But it does rain a lot between October and March and rainy days are conducive to writing and reading. 

    So it should come as no surprise that Portland is number two in the country when it comes to blogging, after Austin.   The statistics are as follows:

    14% of Portland-area adults have either read or added to a blog in the last 30 days.  (Hmmmm....not sure where they got this statistic.  I don't recall them asking me.)

    This equals 285,000 adults, or one in seven.

    One of the fathers of the blogosphere lives down I-5 (we do not call it The 5, as they do in LA) in Corvallis.    Paul Bausch is a web developer who wrote the code for Blogger. 

    Who knew?  There is a whole network of Oregon Blogs, which I am going to have to go investigate.  Meanwhile, you can read The Oregonian story on Oregon Live, here.

    December 18, 2007

    More Things I've Learned About Writing From my Pug

    Be Zen.  Wherever you go, there you are.  If Pug (and it is so funny to me that people routinely refer to their pugs as Pug or The Pug, when we don't, say, call golden retrievers The Golden or The Retriever) is sleeping, he is sleeping.  If he is sitting with the family,  he is sitting with the family, and it is the best thing ever.  He is always fully present, always happy to be doing whatever he finds himself doing.  It is good to emulate this with writing.  When you are writing, be mindful only of writing.  Don't be wondering in the back of your head if you should head on over to A Socialite's Life to find out the latest news on Britney.  And don't go checking email every two seconds.  Be like Pug.  Be happy where you are, which is in the middle of writing.

    Don't go outside unless you have to.  I wrote in a previous post about Igor how he has amazing bladder control.  If it is rainy outside, he just prefers not to go out and pee.  This is excellent advice for writers, translated to--don't stop writing unless you absolutely have to.  Absolutely having to equates a major disaster.  An earthquake qualifies.  A hurricane does, too.  Your child whining for lunch does not.  I don't care if he's only two and not capable of fixing it himself.  Okay, okay, I guess the child thing does qualify.  But all the other reasons we convince ourselves to stop writing--like the above-mentioned checking of emails or reading of gossip blogs--do not count.  Be like Pug.  Don't go out.  Keep writing.

    If all else fails, sleep.  Pugs are prodigious sleepers.  Igor's previous favorite place to sleep was on the warm furry rug in the bathroom, but now he has a far better spot--he likes to smoosh himself into an indentation he's made atop Clothes Mountain in my son's room.  (Lewis is getting his Master's in Math, he doesn't have time to do laundry.  Or even think about such earthly concerns.)  For writers, sometimes sleeping is just what the Pug ordered.  Your subconscious sorts itself out while you sleep.  And that includes naps.  Be like Pug.  Embrace sleep. The very best thing to do is to read a few pages of your story or whatever you are working on before you go to sleep.  You'll be amazed at what your mind will come up with.  I wrote a post about this when I first started blogging, and you can read it here.  This post includes a bonus photo of the Pug himself. 

    That is it for now, as it is Christmas time, in case you hadn't noticed, and besides the endless book I am writing and all the other work I am doing, I do have to shop and wrap presents and cook.  And, by the way, the number one thing on my Christmas list this year is that cute purple Polaroid digital camera, so I can actually take pictures for my blog. 

    You can read the first two posts of what is now looking like a series, here and here.

    December 15, 2007

    Sometimes It is Okay to Tell (Instead of Showing)

    I've written about how important it is to sometimes ignore all the rules in writing.  This morning I thought about that again as I realized that many times it is appropriate to tell, rather than show. 

    I know, I know, you've all heard a million times to show, not tell.  And most of the time that is excellent advice.  In critiquing manuscripts, I'd say that the most common comment (hows that for phrasing?) I make, and hear from others, is "put this into scene," or "dialogue here," or even, "show here." 

    But there are also times when telling is more germane to the story.  This morning I was working on a scene between two people, Ralph and Josephine, boyfriend and girlfriend, sorta.  Josephine likes to think Ralph is her boyfriend, but he is not so sure.  She has been deluding herself as to how much he actually likes her.  Here's the paragraph (and bear in mind this is from a rough, rough draft so its not been edited):

    One of the things that had endeared her to Ralph in the first place was his timeliness. Josephine herself had always had a loose concept of time, but now Ralph was teaching her that being on time, if not getting places early, was an important aspect of success. Still, wasn’t it just the tiniest bit annoying? She glanced at her watch. Just a few minutes past one, and the funeral started at two. The ballroom was only ten minutes away.

    When I read back over that, my instinct at first was to put the last part in dialogue, with Josephine actually saying to Ralph the part about how it was only a few minutes past one, and so forth.  But then I stopped, thought about it, and did not do it.  Why?  Because more important than showing in this instance is letting the reader into Josephine's mind.    What I want the reader to see is how she's built him up in her mind, learning from him about success, and yet there are also these little tiny cracks in his facade.  She doesn't want to get to the funeral nearly an hour early, and she knows it is not necessary.  She has her doubts: Still, wasn't it just the tiniest bit of annoying? But, of course, she does go on to leave early with him because she is still mostly in the blind adoration stage.

    So that is my mini-lesson on telling, not showing.

    December 13, 2007

    In Love With The World

    I got up and worked on my new novel this morning (the one I didn't write for Nanowrimo).  And all is right with the world because of it.  I've been very careful and fussy with this novel so far.  This morning I let it rip.  For whatever reason, and I have some theories, I was able, finally, to let go and let the words flow.

    And then the world is the most beautiful place and I am in love with everything--my ugly old shoes, the dirty dishes, the sunrise, the trees outside, the hours of other work I have to do.  In my studies about Zen (though I really hate to say studies because it is more about experience) I read all the time about enlightenment.  And I think this is the feeling that the enlightened ones get.  But who knows, and who cares.  All I know is that it is the way I want to live in the world, always.  And if it takes getting up early to accomplish it, so be it.

    The key concept of letting writing rip, for me, is to write fast.  When I write fast, I bypass the critic and the harsh editor and the voice of my character's true self is able to emerge from within.  Yes, I make a lot of errors and yes I write a lot of crap.  But those are minor problems that can be fixed later. What you can't achieve (or I should say, what I can't achieve) through fussing over every word is the flow and the tone and the style.  And what does that all add up to?  Voice, of course.

    Along these same lines I recently read a piece a friend wrote and, while the writing was at a very high level, I could tell how much he had labored over it and worked and re-worked it, which did not do the piece any favors.  It made it feel just the wee-est bit stilted and overdone.

    So, what are my theories on how I finally managed to it rip?  Here we go:

    • Chance favors the prepared mind.  ie, I've been pondering this story and its been churning around in the back of my mind, and finally its ready to be told.  I do believe that every story has its moment.
    • I've been sitting down every morning to write, regardless.  I am also a firm believer that the Muse likes discipline.  Others will tell you this is not so, but believe me, it is. 
    • Suzanne did some theta healing on me to cure a wee, ah, hangover I had after hanging out with my friend Sue from Nashville.   And while she was at it she threw in focus and clarity for me. 

    Your guess is as good as mine as to which of these was most instrumental in getting me going again.  And, at this point, I don't really much care.  Because if I had a good work session I can have another tomorrow.  Momentum builds when one is writing every day.  And when one is writing every day, the novel pages pile up. 

    So it doesn't really matter what the reason might be.  Because I am in love with the world. 

    December 11, 2007

    Book Review: The Madonnas of Leningrad

    Last week I finished reading The Madonnas of Leningrad, by Debra Dean.   I'd always been interested in reading this book because Dean is a Seattle author and I happened to be in Seattle when her book was released.  I remember sitting in the window of my room on the eighth floor of the Red Lion Hotel, and reading a review of the book.

    Of such emotional memories and connections are desires to read books born.

    I picked the book up a couple times in the bookstore but never actually bought it.  But then my friend Julie read it and raved about how much she loved it and so when she was finished I borrowed it from her. 

    I read it relatively quickly, for me, as I am generally reading several books at once.  (For instance, I'm currently reading The 3 Pillars of Zen by Philip Kapleau, The Yoga of Discipline by Swami Chidvilasananda, and re-reading The Mists of Avalon by Marion Zimmer Bradley.  Do we detect a theme here?)  And while there was much that I did like about the book, I was a bit disappointed in it, also.

    Perhaps my disappointment speaks more to the power of expectation than anything else.  Because I expected to love the book I had developed a bit of a pre-conceived notion about it that wasn't borne out.  So hence my disappointment. 

    The book has a sure-fire, high-concept premise.  It tells the story of the Siege of Leningrad, during World War II, through the eyes of Marina, an employee of the Hermitage Museum.   The amazing backstory to the novel is that, as the Germans closed in on the city of Leningrad employees of the museum packed away all the precious pieces of art in this huge museum and put it on trains or trucks to be taken to safety.  The story goes that they removed paintings from their frames, leaving the frames on the wall to signify that some day the paintings would be returned.

    Not only that, but thousands of the city's residents took refuge in the basement of the museum, where many of them perished from hunger or the brutal cold. 

    The structure of the book is clever and well done, with Marina, now an old woman living in Seattle and struggling with Alzheimer's.   She can't remember what to do with the fork she is holding in her hand, but she can, and does, remember the winter she spent in the Hermitage museum, working on packing the artwork and trying to survive.  One of the "Madonnas" who has worked at the museum for many years, teaches Marina how to create a "memory palace" in her mind.  Going room by room in the Hermitage, she describes to Marina each of the artworks that used to be there, telling her that somebody must retain the memory of them in order to keep them alive.

    The themes of memory and imagination and love and survival resonate throughout the whole book.  Oh, and it is beautifully written.  As someone who has written a lot about art, I appreciated Debra Dean's gorgeous descriptions of the artworks. 

    I did like the book, I wasn't just rip-roaringly in love with it.  There was a sense of distance that surprised me, perhaps because of the distance between the current-day Marina and the events she remembers.  And Marina's contemporary daughter, Helen, had far less of a character arc than I would have expected.   But, overall, it is worth the read.  As a fellow writer, I admired the craftsmanship of the story--the afore-mentioned description and also the way she structured the plot and kept it clear and cohesive.   There was a dream-like feel to the Russian segments of the novel, perhaps because they were Marina's memories.  But what was missing for me was simply a strong emotional attachment to the characters.  During that long, bitter winter, many people died, including many that Marina was close to.  But so many of them died that after awhile it was business as usual and there was little emotional impact from any of it.

    Still, the book is a good novel.  If you are interested in getting an idea about how extensive and vast the Hermitage truly is, watch Russian Ark.  This film was shot all in one continuous take inside the museum, featuring a cast of thousands.  It theoretically recreates the last great Winter Ball that was held in the museum and it is full of amazing images.  Watching it, I had no idea what was going on, because nothing is explained, but damn, it is a stellar film.

    December 10, 2007

    True Confessions

    Does anybody other than me remember the magazine with the same name as this post?  It was pretty racy stuff back in the day--women confessing their deep, dark secrets, though nowadays what with the advent of internet porn, the stories in True Confessions would be very tame.  I'm not even sure if it exists anymore.

    At any rate, it pains me to announce that I have a true confession.  Here it is:  I am a slacker.  Oh no, come back, don't slink away in horror.  You know that if you were to look deeply into your soul you would find at least a wee, small part of yourself that could be considered a slacker, also.  But then I have the good fortune to live in one of the great slacker towns in the whole world, Portland, Oregon.  Don't believe me?  Head to any coffeeshop here (and we have one on every corner) and note how it is filled with people hanging out.  Don't let those laptops and briefcases fool you, people, we have raised the activity of hanging out to an art form. 

    But I digress.  So back to my shocking true confession.  In between working on a book about successful fundraising letters for Atlantic Publishing, editing for Loose Id, and writing copy for a web design company in San Francisco (which, to my great amusement, doesn't yet have a website), I have been neglecting my blog.  And to continue my whine, let me also remind you that it is Christmas, or Hanukkah, should you prefer it.  Really, you say?  Really, it is.  And that means entire weekends, such as the one recently ended, are taken up with holiday activities, such as getting the Christmas tree.  This is a full-day expedition, seeing as how it is the sacred duty of my family to go out to the Oxbow Rim tree farm to cut a tree every year without fail.  This little adventure involves walking about in the cold for at least an hour, while looking for the perfect tree.  Then it is a given that the perfect tree will either be A. located at the bottom of a steep hill, meaning certain people of the male persuasion are then required to carry it up the hill after cutting it down, or B. it will end up being the very first tree you looked at.  And that is only the Christmas tree expedition.  Don't even get me started on the parties, of which we have at least one a weekend, or the shopping, of which we have only just barely started. 

    So it is for all these reasons that I have been a slacker when it comes to my blog.  I know, I know, I haven't even been able to find 10 spare minutes to work on it?  Moi, the one who is always going on about finding time to write every day, even if it is only to take notes for 15 minutes?  The one who is always harping about momentum, and how important it is to keep it up by engaging with the work on a regular basis? 

    Well, its not that easy, people.  Actually, blogging is easy and delightful and a joy.  But what happens to me is that I start to worry about all the other stuff that goes along with it, in a very un-Zen way.  Like the fact that I've not posted a new chapter of Make Money Writing Online in ages.  Or trying to decide if the posts I've started to do on Everything I Know About Writing I Learned from my Pug is a series or not.  And then there are my commenters.  I love my commenters beyond all reason and it pains me to admit that I've been neglecting them.  I've not been responding to comments and I've not been visiting their blogs, as I usually do.  Finally, there are the 243 emails related to my blog that I've not dealt with.  (Has anyone done research into the phenomenon of emails multiplying like rabbits?  I think they mate at night and bear numerous offspring in huge litters, which in turn then have more children. It is the only thing that can possibly explain how they multiply so quickly.) 

    So I am here today to humbly beseech you for your forgiveness and assure you that I have a Plan to deal with my slackerhood (slackerness?)  I am of the opinion that every single one of my problems, and probably pretty much all of the world's problems, too, can be solved with a Plan.  (Actually I'm learning that a little meditation and mindfulness is pretty good for what ails you, too.) So I am working on a Plan to get my blog back on track. 

    Stay tuned for the next episode, in which I conquer my slacking ways and return to the fold of regular blogging.  With luck, it will appear tomorrow.

    Oh, and by the way True Confessions, the magazine, does still exist.  You can find the website here.  The only thing that worries me is the fact they are still advertising a feature on Fourth of July cupcakes.  Um, people?  It is December.  But in doing my exhaustive research about the magazine I have learned that it, and others of its kind, are considered to be very good markets for writers.  You can read an excellent article about it here.

    December 06, 2007

    Start From Where You Are Now

    Start from where you are now is good advice for anything, really, but it is especially good for writing.  You can't really do anything else, yet we convince ourselves that we can, and that furthermore, we really can't write anything until we do.

    What do I mean by this?

    Let me illustrate by talking about journaling.  I've been thinking about journaling because I've actually been journaling lately, after a long break.  I remember a friend of mine telling me that she got hung up when sitting down to journal because she felt she had to catch the journal up.  So instead of just starting from where she currently sat, she felt she had to relay everything that had happened in the months since she previously wrote.  And then that became such a big job that she never did it.

    This morning when I was writing in my journal I realized I was writing about new people who had come into my life and referring to events that had happened in the interim since I last wrote.  I gave myself permission to write a brief catch-up paragraph if I felt like it, but only if I felt like it.

    And I love this whole discussion because of the implication that when we write in a journal someone is actually reading it, or else why would we feel we have to catch it up?  If we say we love to write in a journal because nobody reads it, yet we worry about making sure everything is written down correctly, doesn't that imply that someone will someday read it?  If a tree falls in the forest.....

    At any rate, when doing any kind of writing all you have to do is start from where you are.  It is that simple and that complicated.  So you want to write a short story but you feel you can't because you don't know how?  Start from where you are now.  Start with how much you do know--which is at the very least, how to write a sentence.  Write one, and then another, and then another.  So you want to write a novel but you don't know how to plot?  Well you probably wouldn't want to write a novel if you didn't have an idea for one, so start by writing that idea down.  And then go from there.  And the next time you sit down to write, start from where you are all over again, only this time you will have a little bit more to go from.  And so it will go, as you continue to build your story or novel, one word, one sentence, one paragraph at a time, as you simply remember to start from where you are.

    December 03, 2007

    Oops...November is Over and so is Nanowrimo

    Um...it appears that somewhere in a flurry of writing, November passed me by and it is now December.  Are you guys aware of this? 

    And so now that it is December, that means that Nanowrimo is officially over.

    I think it must have been around Thanksgiving that I abandoned the pretense that I was actually participating in Nanowrimo.  Too many other assignments conspired to do me in.   I think it was around then, too, that I quit visiting the group I formed which was devoted to Nanowrimo over at Blogcatalog.  Sorry, guys.  I know that those of you who were actually participating got a pretty good discussion going there. 

    At any rate, I did get started on a new novel, and I wrote probably 5,000 words.  Yes, I know, a pathetic showing to those of you who managed to crank out the full 50,000 it takes to "win" Nanowrimo, but it is a start and I am grateful to it.

    And huge congratulations to all of you who actually completed it. 

    December 01, 2007

    Zen and the Art of Writing

    I've been working hard all week on a deadline for a book project I'm working on.  I tend to get myself into these binds where I have to set aside all my other writing--blogging, working on the novel--in order to meet a deadline.  At the same time, I've recently been starting to study Zen.  Though I'm not certain one studies Zen so much as experiences Zen. 

    At any rate, all this has translated into an awareness of acceptance and non-acceptance.  I got my knickers in a twist on Wednesday afternoon, as I started feeling like I was never going to get my assignment done, everything I was writing was awful, and furthermore I hated every minute of it.  Fighting, fighting, fighting.  Why did I have to do this work when my true passion and work lies in writing my novel and my blog?  And so on and so forth.

    And it took me quite some time to realize that instead of fighting it, all I had to do was accept it all.  Acknowledge that I was unhappy and stressed out and let it go.  And that is, of course, about 1000 times easier to write than to actually do.  But still.   

    The goal is mindfulness in whatever one finds themselves doing, and I struggle with this.  Oh, do I struggle with this.  But here is what I am learning: that mindfulness grows from acceptance.  If we accept whatever feelings we're experiencing about our writing, then it clears it away and leaves room just to be mindful about it.

    My favorite times in the whole world (which is a very un-Zen statement, but oh well) are when I am one with the words and I'm so focused on the writing that I'm really not aware of anything else.  And time passes and I'm amazed at how long I've been at it.  That, to me, is mindfulness.

    And it is best achieved through the process of accepting.  Acknowledging all the feelings that come up and letting them go.  Its funny, when I first started writing years ago, I would often get into this state of flow.  Then I learned more about writing, started teaching, and found it harder and harder to get into this state.

    Why?  I think because I know too much.   I now know all the "rules" and the "techniques" and so forth and so when I am writing I am consciously directing everything, making sure I folow the "rules" and "techniques."   

    I have a pillow in my office that I painted when I went to Creativity Camp, taught by Julia Cameron, in Taos, New Mexico.  It says, "Do the work, don't judge it," on one side.  And on the other it says, "Process, not product." 

    I made those pillow years ago and their wisdom remains as strong and true as ever.  I just need to remember to follow it.

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